Another

Hi there.
It was you.
I'm not sure that it was you.
Sometimes I'm afraid to look outside,
I get disappointed when I don't
see you in my frame.
I'd wish it was you or hoping you'll be there
In the next-few-minutes.

Hi there.
I've forgotten how you look.
But I still remember that smile
And that lean line that I know how to trace the sharp curves,
And that scent that you always carry with you,
And you don't even notice how attractive it is.

Hi there.
You smiled.
I laughed. You laughed back.
I wanna hug you tight, I've been counting days (up until now)
When can I feel you in my arms again?
But I can't, I'm shy :)
You see, I'm scared on how you'll fit in my open arms
I'm not sure if these are the arms that you want.
Still want.
I'm not sure if you even want to be held.
Hmmm...

Hi there.
I missed you. I love you.
*Silence.
Ooops, I shouldn't have said that.
*Awkward silence.
So I left him. Space. Still give him space.

He said
"Hey there,
Wait. I've something to say.
It's not that I don't miss you too.
I want to hug you back and
Say I miss you more.
I love you.
And it was lonely without you in my arms.
I just don't know how to start."

She said
"Come back to me"

He said
"Yes"

And he hugged her tightly in the softest whispers of the night.

"Welcome home." He said.

ex factor

where were you when i needed you?

Dessert

I miss you.

You.
Again. Piercing another arrow in my heart.

You.

I miss you.

Please let the table turn.

I think I've had more of my share.

Let him get his'. I've had enough...

Dessert please.

a lost cause

The fool made me realize that a thousand heartaches cannot break you.  Only YOU can break you.  Just as you see the days pass the nights, you can be the only one who can decide when to GIVE IN and when to TURN BACK.


A lost cause will never survive. 
But you feel loneliness once you realize it.


There's an air of weight sitting on your shoulders. 
And how it makes you wonder
How long will I live like this?
Will I be like you too?
And I know I deserve better.
Much Better. Nonetheless.
And smiles. And wines. And lies.
The fill in the empty space that needs to be replaced since the first day of everything.
Endings are always difficult than beginnings.


And I can't understand you.
I can't understand your language.


And as much as i have hoped that we had the same world.  We don't.
We never will.
Never even started.


I feel you.
Do you comprehend what you're missing?


And intentions had been said as part of suggestive planning.
And everything else has been going on inside my head.
MY HEAD. CRAZY NONCHALANT BITCH.
TOO CREATIVE.
TOO SUSPICIOUS.
LESS WORK.
MORE NONSENSE.


And the winds carry me on.
The sky cries for me.
I will hunt you down with grace
When the pain of discomfort
Tames my insatiable thirst for quest.


A QUEST.
That's all there ever was.
A chase-chase-hunt-chase situation.
Who gets to be the hunter and the hunted?


A long gone question in my head
In my head? I hear you.
You mock me.
You don't deserve a walk in my world.
Never.
Never will be.
I will find another path that will lead me to you.
For you 
Disappoint me.
DISAPPOINT ME. You don't have to prove the world
you can charm them
You don't have to impress them
That you're better on your own.  And if he was the man 
She wanted
Him to be,
He would not be intimidated by her silence.




I'm getting creative now. You see
The beauty of it is that it needs to be 
Replaced constantly. An attempt for a conundrum.
Ah, the play of words. WORLDS.
Let me hope to dream.
Maybe I can still find the lust, the pure
Desire to want you back.
My arms that used to hold you
Feels neglected, and the Kisses
that used to burn me with such
Passion, disappeared when I 
Followed you in the dark.


I'm getting lonely. And I understand.
I see the dark where I'm heading.
Places like this used to comfort me.
Now, I'm not sure. Not
So Sure.
Anymore.


There's no time that will be spent.
No more
Waiting until something bends,
No more 
Holding on 
Anymore
I have lived by you and as far
as We KNOW
We had 
Made
Things Work.


We will still live
With each other.  I am still beside
You.
You are not mine,
I will never lose you.
I will still try to save you.
Embrace you from all the hurting.
Comfort you when you lack faith.
I am there for you as you have been there for me.
I will remember you. 
One happy day is almost considered a miracle.
I will remember you.
But I will never again come looking for you.

December One

My fingers carved the familiar silhoutte with such rush as if there's no beginning. No end. Only us. We exist.


My heart skipped with a few play of words.
Rush. Intimate.


We were our own world. We are places.
It was solemn. I was trying to memorize every line, trying to memorize the softness of your skin, trying to memorize the silkiness fo your hair.


And I will remember.


For every curve that perfectly succumbs to you.
How the sweetness tries to cover the shame,
tries to hide the loneliness.
We drown ourselves with delusions. Everything will turn out right. Everything will be fine.


I will miss you.
Trying to cover myself now. Colors have changed.
Demons have sprung forth. You see, I can't control them.


I need your strength.


And how one folds arms around takes everything away.  It will even hide the pain for a few seconds.


Afterglow.  Moments.  Wonders.


Time is passing. Everything is for granted but we finally learned to respect time.


In a very destructive way.






 I am looking forward to another path that will lead me to you.
Want to see how worlds had changed, how it will be.
You, us, me and forever will be different.
Back in worlds were we belong.